The last month has been more stressful than I would have liked. It basically seems like nothing has gone quite right. I’m sure my luck is bound to change sometime soon.
I haven’t written much at all over the last year. I’ve been too busy with my new book and many other things that have taken the majority of my time. Hopefully now that the book came out yesterday I’ll be able to get back into some type of routine with my writing. I’ve been tossing a lot of ideas around already about another book. I would like to do one filled with funny outdoor stories. It would be a book that made you laugh out loud as you read it. It would be the type of stories that you share around a campfire with your friends and family. It would be something like the more you drink the harder you laugh. In the book the more you read the more you will laugh.
I’ve also considered writing a book with the same format as the first two books, but it would be about my adventures in elk country. I’m not sure how that would go because I don’t have any digital pictures at all from elk hunting so the picture quality wouldn’t be too terribly good.
I’ve tossed around the idea of writing about hunting in the Midwest. It would follow the same type of format as the first two books, but I would make a lot of time for different people we’ve met across the country and how they do things.
As you all probably know my ultimate goal is to write a novel. It’s just something I want to do. I want to create my own piece of work with characters that my readers will come to know and love or hate. I have many ideas about it so I’ll have to see what happens as time goes by.
I should be recovering from surgery tonight. Unfortunately my blood was so out of whack when I arrived at the hospital it was impossible to do the surgery. They rescheduled for next Thursday. I followed the directions I was given although I knew it was probably going to be a disaster. Turns out I was right. It wasn’t good. In some strange way I felt embarrassed even though I probably shouldn’t have been. I know that stress kills my blood sugar. Even though I don’t feel that I’m being stressed out it shows up in my blood levels. When heavy stress is present my blood goes sky high and doesn’t retreat hardly at all. It’s not a good feeling and I’m helpless when it happens.
This morning made me feel like I was a bad child or something even though I couldn’t really help what happened because I was following the instructions given to me. When we try again next week I was given the okay to follow my regular schedule and do things as I would on any other day. I’ll pray with all my might that it works out.
I’m not looking forward to the surgery, but in other ways I can’t wait to get it done. It’s possible that the pain I’ve felt in my hip for the last twenty years will gradually go away after the mass is removed and I get through my rehab. I’m looking forward to how good it might be when it’s all over. Time will tell. Who knows it could be worse or something really bad could come out of the whole ordeal but no matter what it may lead to I will push forward with a positive attitude and optimism.
In a situation like this it’s a really good feeling when people reach out to you and wish you luck and a safe recovery. It only has to be a few words to make a difference. People have come out of the woodwork to wish me well with the health problems I’m now encountering. I thank each and every one of you for extending your hand to me. I feel truly blessed.
We all have days when we trudge around and wander if we have any meaning in life. It’s times like these that make all those thoughts go away. Trust me when I tell you that many more people care about your well being than you would think possible. It all comes back to treating people well. If you treat people well they will respect you and do the same in return.
I’ve made many mistakes in my life and I mean many. I’ve hurt people along the way even though I didn’t want to. I’ve never felt good about things like that and I never purposely tried to hurt anyone. I’ve learned that this is life and it just happens sometimes. We try our best to tiptoe around things so we don’t rock the boat and in the end we end up hurting ourselves and others. It’s not a good feeling.
That’s why these situations can give us a lot of confidence. I’ve had people I know I hurt in the past wish me luck and they were genuine in the care they showed. I’m glad that some of these people have forgiven me and I’m even luckier that I have my friends and family who extend their arms to me when I need them.
I’ll go to bed tonight and say a simple prayer just because I’m safe. I should have been in a little bit of pain tonight,but I’ll probably be able to rest a little easier since the surgery won’t take place until next week.
I would like to give a simple thank you to everyone out there who is reading this. Thanks for giving my life meaning. It means more than you will ever know even if you don’t hear it come from my lips. Good night and God Bless,
T.