Todd Mead's Blog

What is a perfect mom? Unfortunately, from the many stories I’ve heard, I don’t believe many people believe their mom is a superhero. However, since I was old enough to walk, my mom has been Wonder Woman. Yes, she probably babied more than she should’ve as I was growing up, but I’ll never forget those days, and I’ll be forever grateful for the attention I received.

I still remember the big wheel I got for Christmas one year before my parents built the house they live in now, and I even remember the Rock’m Sock’m robots my siblings and I got. Even when my parents were trying to carve out a living with only my dad working and my mother watching us kids, Mom made sure we had everything … and I mean everything. It wasn’t the gifts that created the everlasting bond, though. It was the ability to be a perfect mother that created her relationship with me and my two siblings.

She led us down some paths and watched us walk down others on our own. She tried giving us guidance but never steered us in any direction other than the ones we wanted to explore. She knew when to be a mother, and she also knew when to be a friend, making sure boundaries were established and we understood our part in life. She showed us how important it was to work, even when we didn’t feel like going.

Mom has always lived her life for others, which is definitely not something I can say about myself. Instead, I’ve been somewhat selfish with my time and life. I probably should’ve followed the lesson a little better, but at the same time, she has been my biggest fan in everything I’ve pursued.

When I was about 3 years old, my mom plopped my butt down in a shopping cart at Zayres department store and began wheeling me through the aisles. She had a list and began scratching things off as she threw them in the main compartment of the cart. With my stubby little legs hanging out the child seat part of the cart, I watched in amazement.

After checking out, we realized I had lost my straw teddy bear that I always had with me. It had been handed down from her father, and it was suddenly missing. Instead of panicking, she headed to the customer service area to see if someone could help us. Within minutes, my teddy bear had been located and returned to me. I’m still not sure how she brought it back to me, but she did. Furthermore, I’m not sure how I remember the entire episode. I’m sure not many people have many memories from that age. I can also tell you that Barb Wood, mom’s friend, was shopping with us. They both used to share their french fries with me after shopping. Of course, I would get a McDonald’s hamburger if I behaved well. If McDonald’s wasn’t on the agenda, we would stop at the Carol’s hamburger place next to McDonald’s.

As my childhood continued, Mom found herself facing a daunting task when I was diagnosed as a Type 1 diabetic in first grade. Knowing nothing about diabetes, she had to learn how to organize a diet for me that would allow my blood sugar levels to remain at acceptable levels. She would also learn how to draw insulin out of bottled and inject me. Then, she would learn how to take care of me when I went into insulin shock and bring me out of it with instant glucose. She did it without missing a beat. She also made sure she never allowed me to think I was any different from other kids. I lived my life with the hidden disease and nobody could tell I was “different.” I have my mother to thank for my upbringing. I learned how to be disciplined and follow a schedule. If I didn’t stay on track, I would pay the price and possibly die.

When I reached puberty, I was all over the map with hobbies. It’s also when I took a liking to motorcycles. Instead of buying herself a new car, she took out a loan and bought a motorcycle for me. I made a track behind the house, and I would ride the bike on every trail in the area. I would be gone for hours on end. I never stopped riding, not even at night. Fortunately, my bike had a headlight on it, and I could tool around in the woods and the field behind the house. I’m sure she was worried when I was late coming home, but she never stopped me from doing what I love. I knew the concessions she made to buy the motorcycle, and I have never forgotten it. If it weren’t for her, I never would’ve learned how to ride a motorcycle.

Shortly before I was old enough to drive, I begged my mother to let me back her car out of the garage because I could drive a stick. Well, I sure made a mess out of that. While backing up, I panicked and put the gas pedal to the floor. I slammed into my uncle’s vehicle in the driveway, wrecking the back end of my mom’s Toyota Corolla and smashing the rear quarter panel of my uncle’s vehicle. She never raised her voice or yelled at me. Instead, she made sure I was OK and continued driving her wrecked car.

A few years after that incident, she gave me one of her cars, and I drove it until she bought me another one. Then, as I got ready to go off to college, she handed down her white Toyota Corolla to me, and I called it my own for the duration of my college career. Once again, giving everything of herself to make sure I had the things she never had. I always came before anything she wanted. Unfortunately, I never saw the magnificence in it at the time, like I do now. My mom is the most loving person in the world. Although I’ve loved her my entire life, I lover he more and more every day I’m alive.

After getting out of college, my mom helped me make a deal for my first couple of new vehicles. Through her job, she knew many car dealers. She taught me how to negotiate and make a deal. In doing so, I bought a brand new Izuzu Pup off-road package before eventually buying a brand-new Ford 150. She taught me how to always have equity in my vehicle and how to always stay above water on the financial end of car deals. I’ll be forever thankful for that because those lessons still play a big part in my life today. Thank you, Mom. You taught me well.

When I hit mid-life, my world fell apart in front of me. Without any warning, I found myself lost. I was at the bottom of a deep, dark pit. The walls were closing in on me, and I felt like there was no escape. I would cry endlessly for days, weeks, months on end. I was starting over and felt like I had no place to go. Mom opened her heart and ensured me everything would be OK. She worked her magic with me, but I could see the pain she was in due to taking my pain on the chin. She did it without hesitation, and she did it well. She smiled, spoke softly and inspired me to find a better life. I took it all in and gradually began climbing back up the hill, eventually writing three books. Her encouragement and support allowed me to work tirelessly toward my goals. Then, when I got to the top of the mountain, she was there waiting for me with open arms. She hugged me, told me she loved me and made sure I knew how proud she was to watch my accomplishments unfold in front of her.

As time began creeping by again, I saw her and Dad pack their bags and make their annual pilgrimage to Florida for the winter. Not expecting anything different than normal, I watched them go. Then, in late February, the phone rang, and I picked it up. With a seriousness I had not heard in the past, she told me I should probably get to Florida ASAP because Dad had come down with something and the doctors had informed her he might not make it to the end of the week.

Within minutes, I booked a flight to Daytona and headed south to be with her and Dad. I would have an extended stay as Dad fought with everything he had to get from one day to the next. On dialysis and without much hope, we began doing some research and made the choice to get him back to New York for treatment. We packed the truck, rented a trailer and headed North. Eventually, Dad would recover, but it felt good to finally be there for Mom after all the times she has been there for me.

I guess that brings us to today. Happy Mother’s Day, Mom. I love you with every ounce of me being. If I could make a list of things I’d want in a perfect mother, I could never come close to listing all the bonuses you have given to me and my siblings. You were a mom when we were growing up and you became a friend and mother as I became an adult. There’s nothing more I enjoy than sitting down with you and talking every day. It is and always has been the highlight of my day. Sometimes, I get caught up in my own life, but I value my time with you more than anything else. There’s nothing I could ever do to repay you for everything you’ve done for me and continue to do for me. If I had one wish, I’d wish that every child, whether the kid is a barefoot child who can barely speak and is rolling around on the floor or a 59-year-old man who calls you every afternoon to have that reassuring chat with you, could have you had a mother. When I look at all of the things you’ve been able to do, I’m in awe.

You went from getting married in high school and having a child shortly after graduation to having two more children. You raised us, then decided to go to work. You made a career for yourself, then traveled across the world visiting all the places you always dreamed of seeing. I guess you could say that life hasn’t been overly fair to you on the health side. Your resilience has taught me to never complain about health issues and never use them for any type of excuse. I’ve seen you embrace the battles over time, and I watch you put the smile on now and take it the best you can right now. I’ve never been more proud to tell people you are my mom, my hero. I wish I had your strength, and I wish I could compartmentalize all the things you do without letting them consume you. You’ve taught me that anything is possible, and you’ve taught me that having a negative attitude will never help me get beyond the obstacles we all face.

Today is your day, Mom. I want you to know that I love you. I’m grateful for you. I admire you. You are the person who inspires me to be a better person and treat everyone fairly. I hope today welcomes you with a dose of caring, loving warmth and happiness. I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you proud, and I will do anything I can for you. I never could’ve asked for a better mother, and even if I did, God could never make a woman who is better than you at being a mom. Thank you, Mom. I love you.

I’ve taken my time getting back to full-time work after getting laid off. Although many of my former co-workers jumped back into the workforce immediately upon dismissal, I chose a different path. I decided to spend time getting to know myself again, even though I already had an intimately close relationship with the guy staring back at me in the mirror.

When I got out of college in May of 1991, I searched for a job by jumping through hoops. At times, I worked three jobs that required me to be awake for 24 hours at a rip while giving my time to three different businesses. When I finally landed a second full-time job in August of that year, I gently let go of the reins and found myself holding only one job a short time later, figuring I would stay for about five years at the most and gain as much experience as possible.

In the blink of an eye, 10 years passed like the wind blowing clouds across the sky… then 20… then 30. Heading toward 35 years of service, I was content to settle in and ride the wave to the beach before picking up my surfboard and walking into the sunset. I had become accustomed to the vacation time I had accrued and the flexibility that was offered. I had also started working from home, where I found it much easier to be more productive without the nonstop interruptions that always prevented any type of consistent flow from one day to the next in the office. Wasted time in unnecessary meetings and continuous distractions and drama throughout the office made it more difficult to focus and concentrate.

Then, in late January of last year, we had a meeting in which we were told that “where we work from” would be changing. Although most people missed the point, I knew it meant the office in Queensbury, N.Y., would most likely see massive cuts. The prediction I made to some of my co-workers was coming to the forefront sooner than I had anticipated. When we were told we would be working from home a few years earlier, I gave it no more than 10 years until the office would be non-existent. It didn’t take half the time that I thought it would to basically decimate the workforce.

About a year ago, I was one of the first to go. I found it to be unusually rewarding. I would finally have a chance to do what I truly wanted to do. However, I wasn’t exactly sure what that might be. Collecting severance and working some part-time jobs, I took a deep breath and found new life. Finally, I narrowed down my choices and found something I could do well and realized I might as well give it a shot. I’m a storyteller, and I enjoy telling stories. Using true stories to promote businesses and the people who comprise the workforce allows consumers to get a deeper appreciation for the products they use. It creates a personal connection that can’t be found by scrolling through social media watching reels and looking at pictures.

So where does this leave me? While I’m still plugging along looking for something that will allow me to live the life I want to live, I’m also taking on the challenge of being a storyteller of businesses. Why take the marketing approach everyone else takes and plaster insignificant nothingness on social media platforms? While some of that does, indeed, work, it has come to the point that there’s so much of it being done now, people keep scrolling and never really notice it. Why not take a chance on a person who can tell your story in a unique, captivating way that holds your intended audience’s attention and gives them a better idea about the company, the products and the extravagant results than can be achieved when using your stuff?

If you’re still reading this, think about the companies that some of you own, the companies that employ some of you, and the products you use and the reason why you use them. I can gladly work with you or your employer to create the vision you have for your company through content creation and storytelling. While my background isn’t in marketing, the paths I’ve walked in this life have allowed me to further my skills in communications and learn how to relate to people from all backgrounds. After writing three books and maintaining three on-line blogs, I’ve learned how to reach people on a personal level, draw attention and sell products.

As most of you know, my specialty revolves around archery products and the outdoor industry, which is where I would ultimately like to end up on this journey. However, with a little research, some interviews and diving into unknown depths, I can tell a unique story about anything, even if I know nothing about it prior to tackling the project. After all, I’m a creative writer and love what I do. It’s my job to be creative and think in ways others don’t consider. It’s my job to tell an unforgettable story.

If any of this piques your curiosity — or might pique the curiosity of the company for whom you work — feel free to reach out, and we will get the ball rolling to bring attention to your business.I’d love to converse with anyone about what I have to offer, including social media content development.

Standing here looking across the horizon is still a little scary, but at least I’m staying busy, looking for new ventures, and doing what I can to open new doors and help people tap into the hidden secrets in my mind that I can see across the valley. Stand beside me and let me show you what I see.

I think every year we learn a little about ourselves and life in general. Instead of writing something about the year I’m leaving behind, I think I’ll bullet point different things that crossed my mind at some point in 2024.

• Things can change in the blink of an eye; always keep one eye open so you see it coming
• Without a clear mind, it’s difficult to accomplish goals
• Making lists and crossing things off them ensures you stay on track
• Going to bed early and getting up early is easy when you have a purpose
• The best role model one could ask for is a parent, but both parents as role models is amazing
• Watching a loved one suffer without ever complaining is inspiring
• Everyone can be replaced
• In corporate America, you are nothing more than a number… be prepared when your number is called
• People choose different paths… let your feet carry you down the one that you define as your own
• In most things in life, it’s not what you know… it’s who you know and what they can do for you
• You’re an average of the five closest people to you… take a good look at those people
• It’s your life; Live it for yourself, not others
• Healthcare in America is all about making money
• Sometimes you can try too hard
• Starting over when you’re within reach of retiring isn’t much fun
• Working a lifetime and giving up money for a flexible schedule and time off doesn’t always pay off
• Loyalty between employees and employers is a thing of the past
• Having hobbies helps during down times
• Writing soothes the soul
• Seeing old friends and not missing a beat is a great thing
• Realizing how fast life really goes is depressing
• Having parents who let me learn how to fail has been a great life lesson
• Being in the company of greatness makes you learn how to appreciate the small victories
• Knowing someone who is one of the best in the world at their craft is humbling
• Having great friends from near and far is amazing
• Missing a pet from the past can be depressing
• Election years are chaotic
• Different viewpoints in politics should never change your opinion of a person’s character
• It’s odd how so many places are all about inclusion, yet if you don’t believe what they believe you are wrong
• The future can never be told
• The past can make you smile and cry
• The present allows you to be strong and steady
• Accountability is the key to moving forward, accepting defeat, and living your best life
• Not meeting goals can be irritating
• Meeting goals can be inspiring and rewarding
• Searching for the perfect job can be tiring
• Waiting for the right opportunity takes patience
• Having good friends to share thoughts with is priceless

It was mid-February in 1977, and I waited in the window looking for my father to pull into the driveway. Not being old enough to understand he would be exhausted after working all night, I couldn’t wait to go ice-fishing. It had been extremely cold for the previous two weeks, but Dad chose that Saturday morning because the weatherman had predicted a spring thaw. The temperatures were supposed to get into the 30s, and he promised me we would go with John Affinito, one of his friends from work. I always enjoyed going fishing with John, and looking back on it, it’s probably because he had a way of relating to an 8-year-old kid.

As I saw the brown station wagon creeping up the driveway, “Scooby-Doo” played on the TV over my left shoulder. The noises from my favorite cartoon quickly subsided into nothingness, and I ran down the stairs to meet my father at the cellar door… we would be heading to Tyke’s bait shop in Whitehall, N.Y., after my father grabbed a quick bite to eat and shared a few stories with my mom about his long night at work.

Once on the road, we shared stories about what might happen in the coming hours. Would we catch a lot of perch with our jigging rods or would we have to depend on the live bait at the end of the line on our tip-ups to lure in some pike, pickerel and perch? Every time we went fishing, the story was waiting to be told.

Pulling into Tyke’s, a lot of beat up trucks and old cars scattered across the tiny parking lot on the side hill above the hut that housed a bunch of tanks full of small fish. Walking down the hill and looking at the giant red letters that spelled “Tyke’s” on top of the building, I felt excitement jolting from my fingers to my toes when Dad turned the door handle.

It was dingy inside, and there was smoke hanging above the bubbling fish tanks. A few men with half-smoked cigarettes hanging out of their mouths stood in the corner, as the smell of fish crept into my nostrils. Then, the old white-bearded man behind the counter shouted at my dad, “What can I get you today?”

Then, another voice sounded from the far side of the shop. It was hard to see the man, but I recognized the voice. It was a voice I had heard many times throughout the winter while fishing for perch and the few previous years while fishing for trout in the spring. His hearty laugh and joking manner attracted me. I liked the man. It was John Affinito. Although he was an adult, it was easy for him to be like me. Heck, we were just two boys who wanted to go catch some fish.

After getting our live bait for the tip-ups and a few Swedish Pimples to use while jigging, we headed outside, got in our vehicles and headed north. A few miles down the road, we came to South Bay. I gathered my gloves and pulled my hat over my ears. Going over the bridge before getting to the boat launch where we normally walked onto the ice, Dad looked at me and said, “We are going someplace different today. We are going to Bulwagga Bay up by Fort Ticonderoga.”

His comments didn’t phase me, as I couldn’t wait to get on the ice and let the line unwind into the darkness of the first hole he would drill. It didn’t matter if we were going to Huletts, Diamond Point, Bolton, Hague, South Bay, or Bulwagga Bay, I just wanted to catch some fish.

Finally, we pulled off the road along an old beat-up railroad track and got ready to head onto the ice. Dad put some stuff in a dark blue plastic toboggan after throwing the straps of a dark wicker backpack over his shoulders and adjusting it to fit comfortably on his back. Within minutes, we were hopping over the tracks and heading onto the hard water.

The day passed quickly and we hauled in about 35 perch. John joked throughout the day about the number of fish I caught compared to him, and he wanted lessons. This day was no different than all the other days I experienced as a kid while fishing with my dad and John. However, as a few years passed, Dad took a new job. After taking the job, we saw much less of John, as their schedules changed and Dad ended up in management and believed it was best to distance himself from people to avoid any claims of him showing favoritism or bias toward others. Now, in my mid-50s, I’ve learned over the years how many people could’ve followed my dad’s lead on that. Unfortunately, in modern society, it’s difficult to find people like that who are managers or leaders in any organizations. Instead of the most qualified people being put into positions, there are many businesses whose leaders put their friends and family members into positions in which they are highly unqualified to do. My dad made the right choice, and I’m glad he explained it to me. He taught me to always search for the most qualified people to work with to produce the best work.

A Decade Later

The years passed quickly, and I found myself in my teen years. I was experimenting with hunting, but I still enjoyed my time with a fishing rod more than anything. Then, going into my sophomore year of high school, the hunting bug finally got me. My brother had moved to Montana the previous year to pursue his love of rocks, stones and the earth and try his hand at obtaining a geological engineering degree from the Montana School of Mines, otherwise known as Montana Tech. When he left, I found myself hunting after school and becoming more interested in animals than fish.

When the time came to choose a college, I chose SUNY Oneonta for a variety of reasons. However, one of the things that sealed the deal was the fact that my father had brought me to Oneonta every year to hunt in the places he had hunted with his friends for many years. I felt comfortable in the woods, and my familiarity with the area allowed me to become a guide for my friends. I was in heaven. Oneonta would change my life, and I still consider my time there as the best four years of my life. I learned how to live alone, manage money, and learn how to be an adult. I’ve never thought I got much smarter at college, but I did learn how to grow up and understand how the real world worked. I learned how to struggle and find a way to overcome hardship. Those lessons have served me better than anything I ever learned in a book during my time there.

With my father hunting in the Adirondacks, the excitement of guns roaring and deer running all over became a thing of the past for him… but not for me. I would continue experiencing opening days in the southern zone throughout my college years, and many of dads friends with whom he used to hunt were still doing the same, one of them being John Affinito.

Not having the easy access that my father used to have when he hunted with his friends, I had to access the same mountain from another area, and the hike to get to the top was brutal, especially with a backpack, tree stand, and gun draped over my shoulders. When I finally got to where I wanted to go on opening day, I attached my climbing tree stand to the base of the tree, climbed the tree and settled in to wait for daylight.

Shortly after daylight, a nice 7-pointer tried sneaking past me but didn’t make it. When the sound of the gunshot echoed off the surrounding mountains and thundered through the valley in front of me, I smiled and wished my dad was there to experience it with me. He had shared many great moments on that mountain with his friends.

With a doe permit in my pocket, I stayed in the tree. I could see the lifeless body of the buck I had just killed, but it had just gotten light, and I knew I had an opportunity to see more deer. I figured I would take my chances and see if I could fill both of my tags.

About an hour later, I heard a stick crack behind me. Peering over my shoulder without moving, I could see a man walking. He was wearing a red flannel coat and dark green wool pants. He didn’t have a clue I was in the tree about 50 yards from him.

As he got closer, he spotted me and walked to the base of the tree. Looking up, John Affinito recognized me and asked, “Have you seen anything?”

I smiled and whispered, “I have one down right over there behind that log.”

Smiling, rolling his eyes, and throwing his right hand over his head, he whispered through a chuckle, “Just like your damn father. You guys are something else.”

After a few minutes of small talk, John disappeared into the trees, and that was the last time I saw him for almost three decades. He had been a big part of my childhood on a limited basis, but he had made an impression on me, and I have never forgotten the times I shared with him and my dad on the ice or floating on an Adirondack pond or sharing some deer stories in Oneonta. He was an adult I respected and enjoyed being around.

A Few Weeks Ago

With my life in chaos, I knew I needed to get my tires changed before fall rolled in, so I contacted my buddy Chuck Weeden at Ross Chevrolet in Whitehall, the town where Tyke’s bait shop was located and where John Affinito lived. We scheduled an appointment, and I marked it in my calendar. In doing so, I didn’t realize my father had an appointment the same day, but he would have to leave his truck overnight, so I would have to give him a ride home after my truck was serviced.

Driving down Route 149, the narrow, curvy road brought an uneasy feeling into my upper chest. Anxious moments have a way of finding me when I travel on that road. Eighteen-wheelers think they’re on a super highway, and there isn’t much room for any type of error while navigating the road.

After getting on Route 4 in Fort Ann, I felt slightly better but still on edge. It was a sunny, beautiful day. With the window down, the air slapped my left cheek and blew my hair to the side. I could feel the warmth from the sky, and the light traffic made my ride to Whitehall uneventful.

Parking the truck across the road in one of the dealership’s lots, I made my way to the service desk. Seeing Chuck in his office, I smiled and put my head down. As I got near the door, I saw him say something to a man sitting in a chair in the office. The man’s back was turned to me, so he stood up and looked out the window. With a big smile on his face, he came out of the office, extended his hand, pulled me close to him once our hands connected and gave me a hug. The man was John Affinito.

Chuck made room for us in his office and let us talk while I waited for my father to arrive and let Justin finish the work on my truck. John asked me if I remembered the time he caught the small trout in the pond in the Adirondacks and told me to eat it raw because it was good. He said I looked at him and said, “If it’s good, you do it first, then I’ll do it.”

That story came up a few times over the next hour, and we laughed and smiled and had a good time while everyone in the dealership around us was trying to work. There we were — a 55-year-old man, a 77-year-old man and a 92-year-old man laughing and carrying on like I was still 8 years old. The laughs brought me back to the time I saw John on the mountain in Oneonta. He was the same age I am now, yet it seems like it was about 10 years ago.

After Justin finished the work on my truck, I didn’t want to go home. I wanted to stay lost in the past. I wanted to go back to being 8 years old without having any idea how life works. I wanted to go back in time to avoid aging. I wanted to see friends and family members who have gone to another world. I wanted to smile, laugh and go fishing. I wanted to live a life without having to face the complications that come with aging and Type 1 diabetes. I wanted to ride home from Whitehall with my dad driving and me having no clue how to drive. I wanted to look out the window and wait for my dad to get home. I wanted to play in the yard while listening to my mom telling me to get inside because there were Bigfoot sightings in Whitehall, and she didn’t want him to get me. Heck, I always thought she believed in Bigfoot until I finally figured out she thought the fear of Bigfoot would actually make me come inside and quit playing.

I’m thankful for many things in my life and learning to appreciate all the people in our lives and the impact they had on us is important. Whether you’re young or old, I believe it’s important to connect with the younger and older generations. The young can teach us many things about ourselves, and the old can inspire us to do more. No matter what you’re doing or where you’re going, I encourage everyone to seek to do more and follow your passions. That will present you with a richer life than any wealth will ever bring you.

A little more than a week ago, I was sitting in the same place I’m sitting as I’m constructing this blog entry this morning. My morning had started no differently than so many other mornings since COVID ran rampant across the world, causing many companies to shift gears and sway in a direction that required their employees to work from home. However, last week was a little different than this morning.

Around 9 a.m., a chat message popped up on my screen. It was a former boss, one I had not spoken to in any work related matter in about five years. The message itself didn’t catch me off guard, but the name of the person sending it did. Although it’s neither here nor there, as I sit here today, I still can’t find any reasonable explanation why a former boss from years ago would notify me with the HR manager in the meeting. I’d think it would make more sense to have the HR manager take care of that task.

After reading the message, I quickly navigated to my email and checked the invite that had been sent that morning. Since I only check my email a few times a day, I had missed it. There hadn’t been any meeting invitations sent earlier in the week to give me a heads-

Looking at the invite, I laughed to myself. There was no secret as to the meaning of the meeting. My former boss and the HR manager were the only ones on it. After the town hall meeting a few weeks back, I knew the days of corporate America in small-town America were quickly coming to an end. Some of us would go sooner than others, but we were all going to be sitting in the train station as the workloads hopped on the train and headed to different locations across the globe.

As they tried delaying the inevitable with a bunch of distracting conversation, the haymaker right hand was finally thrown and the TKO was in effect. My 33 years of service were done. I would finally be given an opportunity to find a more rewarding and satisfying path to follow, something I had halfheartedly searched for over the years. After all, flexibility is everything to me. Being wealthy never interested me, but living the richest life I could live always captivated my imagination and inner soul. I chased a good life; a life I could someday look back on and be thankful for. I accomplished that over the last 33 years, and I’ll be forever grateful for every bit of it. I learned a lot about myself, what I need to be happy, and most of all… what I want to avoid and where I want to go from here.

Although the process took no more than 5-10 minutes, it seemed like I was 5 years old again while my mother was driving around the parking lot looking for a closer spot to park before heading into Zayre’s department store to go shopping. I used to sit in the front seat seat (there were no car seats back then) and wonder why Mom was circling the parking lot instead of just pulling into the spot and getting on with things so we could go in and find a toy I could play with while she pushed me around the store. Heck, 33 years ago I was only 22 years old, but here I was in that childhood memory that always brings a big smile to my face. I loved going with Mom and her friend Barb Wood.

Hanging up the phone after being told I was done, effective immediately, the wheels rolled away from my desk as I pushed my feet forward on the plastic mat below it. I took a deep breath, smiled and welcomed the opportunity that had just been presented to me. While many people have no sense of job loyalty, I’ve lived a loyal career. I’ve never been one to surf across numerous platforms to find the next best thing. I chose that route to live a rich life, and I knew right then that I would start my search with those same wants and needs at the top of my list. People who have the most money are not usually the happiest people out there, but people who are able to live the life they choose are the ones who seem to attract envy from others.

So Here We Are

Now that a week has passed since my new life began, I feel good. I spent the week tidying up a lot of things that needed attention and reaching out to people in my network. Having a large number of people in my network from the numerous things I’ve been involved with over the years, networking is an essential part of staying on the path you have chosen for yourself. I guess I could say I feel like I’m 22 again. I’ve been blessed with a chance to start over and explore different things I never gave myself the opportunity to explore in the past. What would I like to do? Where would I like to end up? Do I stay local or do I travel? Do I get more involved in the business side of things that have brought the most enjoyment to my life? Do I try something new and totally different? Do I focus more on the writing projects that have always interested me? Do I finish the novel I started when my dad was sick? For the time being, I’m going to dabble in a bunch of things and figure out what will suit my lifestyle the best. In the end, I may not have a choice, but I’m going to give it everything I have to ensure I can build upon the richest — not wealthiest — life I ever could’ve imagined building for myself. Over the years, I’ve noticed that people who are totally immersed in things that bring them satisfaction are usually much more at ease and relaxed.

Although finding out that I would no longer be employed by the same company after 33 years of employment presents a great challenge, I feel well prepared for all challenges I encounter. I have my parents to thank for that. They taught me from a young age how to navigate life’s detours, and they gave me the necessary skills to stay grounded and remain determined, disciplined and focused. I welcome the challenges that lie in my path at the current time. When one door closes, another one opens. However, if you stare too long at the door that has been closed, you may be limiting yourself to new and exciting opportunities on the other side of the door that has been opened. It’s a cautionary tale I’ve always been warned about, and that’s why I sprinted through the newly opened door.

Amazing Friends

Your closest friends will always pick you up. They’ll have your back when they’re standing next to you when you’re at your worst, and they’ll stand tall to defend you when you aren’t there to defend yourself. They are the people with whom you should try to surround yourself, and I’ve been lucky to have people like this in my life. While there will always be surprises along the way, I’ve learned that if you treat people well and respect them, they will usually follow your lead. However, respect should always be earned, not given out freely. That’s why I treat the vast majority of people the same way.

In the last few days, I’ve had a few humbling things happen to me, and I really don’t have the right words to thank the people who have taken the time to reach out just to make sure I’m OK. Darren Collins, my pro-staff director for PSE, reached out to make sure I was standing on my feet and to tell me he had an ear tilted for anything that might interest me. Digger Cogar called me to ensure me that everything always works out for the best. I guess the biggest thing about these two people doing that is because they’re the only two people I told in the last week. When you have the respect of your peers at the highest level in any competitive arena, it ensures you that you are doing things correctly. I value the places of both of those guys in my life, and I’m thankful for meeting and getting to know both of them on my journey through competitive archery. I’m incredibly lucky to be able to call them good friends.

I went to see my archery coach, Mike Price, in Phelps, N.Y., earlier this week. We talked a lot about some issues that concerned me with shooting, and he offered is never-ending guidance. Without his guidance, I’m sure I never would’ve accomplished many things with a bow that I have been able to accomplish. Mike and I have always worked in silence and never seek attention. That’s probably why Mike’s resume is overlooked. However, if you take a step back and look at his own personal shooting resume, as well as the accomplishments of his students, there’s a reason I put all of my trust in him. When I told him about the predicament I’m in, he offered to talk to some of his friends and thought he might be able to land some work in ghostwriting from a few outdoor personalities and companies. The brief conversation gave me some more insight on other avenues to explore. I’d love to do any communications/marketing or writing for archery and outdoor companies, and my education and background fit perfectly into doing that type of work.

As many people know, I live at my local club in the winter. I’ve always found archery to keep me focused, disciplined and driven to succeed. The things archery has brought into my life have helped me with everything, including personal relationships and employment. When I shoot my bow, I focus on the process and let the rest fall into place. When I set the shot up correctly, the arrow is going in the X. Being able to ignore distractions, focus on the process and get the job done builds confidence, and confidence is necessary to succeed in anything in life.

There is a core group of people who are at the club every night, and I do everything I can to help them. While I’m not a certified coach, I have as much experience shooting in national events as I do from the job I no longer have. It allows me to teach people things to avoid to fall into a trap and lose confidence. If I can build their confidence and show them an easier way, I will do everything I can to help them as long as they’re willing to listen, learn and put the time in. People don’t see the work that goes in behind the scenes. They don’t see the sacrifices that have been made, and they don’t understand the commitment to discipline and determination that is required to get to the next level.

In the last year, I’ve spent an exorbitant amount of time shooting with people whose sole purpose in shooting is to get better. They’ve all made great strides, and this makes me happier than any of my personal accomplishments.

My core team is made up of kids, adults, families, perfectionists, beginners, and a few whose bodies don’t allow them to do the things that are natural for the rest of us. Every night I roll into the club and know I’ll see Shane, Chris, Lauren, Justin, Connor, Aiden, Melissa, and Ryan on the line.

Shane will be operating on something on his bow, always having his toolbox in hand. Chris will be against the wall working hard to perfect his shot in his pursuit of a spot on the U.S. Paralympic Archery Team. Aiden will be back and forth between the shooting line and the red recliner, shooting Xs every chance he gets. Connor, Aiden’s little brother, will be a little wild man some nights and a quiet little fella on other nights. Lauren will be sitting in the chair trying to keep track of her male clowns in her circus, or she will be standing next to her husband working on improving her archery skills. Justin will be shooting arrow after arrow and be in his own little world while not paying attention to anything around him. Melissa will be somewhere near the middle of the line trying her hardest to improve while blocking out all of the other distractions and focusing on her breathing to center her energy flow. Ryan will be at the bow press with someone’s bow torn apart as he tries his hardest to get the bow to shoot the best it can possibly shoot for that individual. If he’s not doing that, he’s in his own little bubble while torching X after X after X, making it look so incredibly easy that we all get jealous watching.

As I walk in and set my stuff on the floor, I realize these people are my people. They are the ones I see the most throughout the winter. We all experience the highs and lows together. We try to pick each other up when we are down and we try to keep each other grounded so we don’t have false beliefs as we march forward. We support each other. We have created our own AA… Archers’ Anonymous. Our stories help each other, and we find comfort amongst one another that cannot be found anywhere else. Whether we talk about the past, present or future, we find a way to relate to each other, as we all walk through life doing what we love. Life is not easy, but it doesn’t have to be hard either. I’ve tried to help all of these people live rich lives through archery, which will carry into all other parts of their lives. We only get one shot at this game called life, and nobody gets out of the game alive.

Well, my people presented me with an unbelievable gift this week. It brought tears to my eyes, and I could never truly thank them for their generosity. I have never done anything for any of these people other than offer my friendship and what little expertise I’ve gained in my archery travels. I’ve never been a coach, but I guess they refer to me as their coach. I’m not sure what to think about that. I’m no different than any of them, and archery brought all of us together.

So what’s my purpose in writing this? I just wanted to give people an update because I know a lot of people have been asking, as many things are kept secret from the people who are still left employed at the same company. I also want to give people hope that even in our worst moments, things seem to work out for the best. I’ve never been a chronic worrier. I have a lot of confidence in my network, the connections I’ve made over the years, and the simple fact I’ve been successful in many things in my life through hard work and nothing more. I’ve always given 100% effort to anything I’ve attempted, and that won’t change until I breathe my last breath. I also want to thank all of the people I mentioned and the many I didn’t mention. You all play a huge part in my life. If anyone in my network has any ideas or suggestions, I’m all ears. I’m willing to tackle anything out there because I’m sure if I don’t know how to do something, I’ll figure it out. I’m too determined to conquer things to ever give up, so I always love a new challenge. Good luck to all of you who are fortunate enough to be blessed with a chance to start over. Not many people get that chance so shoot for the moon… even if you miss , you’ll land among the stars.

Due to unforeseen problems with the Hunting Journal tab, I can’t upload any information onto it. Therefore, this link should help you find it if you’re interested.

https://backcountrybucks.blogspot.com

 (Circa 2004) It was a bright, sunny fall day as we made our way down Rt. 7 along the Ohio River. Although it was 80 degrees, we were giddy with hopes and expectations of what might happen in the coming days. Being early November, we knew bucks would be on their feet in the daylight and looking for does, even if the heat hung around. 

  As the day ventured into midafternoon, everyone began getting hungry. Without many dining establishments to choose from, we decided to stop at a Burger King in one of the depressed coal towns along the river. The blackened houses, sidewalks and street signs cast long, dreary shadows, and there was an uneasiness that couldn’t be avoided as two young men, one wearing a white wife beater and the other in a torn red-and-black checkered flannel, sat at a picnic table outside the establishment and passed a cigarette back and forth.  

  We made quick work of our lunch and got back on the road. A few miles down the road, Doug broke out the Burger King crown that had come with his meal. He put it on his head, and we all shared deep belly laughs… Doug would be the new king. 

                                                                    The Hunt

    As the days wore on, we had some encounters and punched a few tags, but Doug was still in search of a good set of antlers. Looking in the back seat, he spotted the crown and threw it on his head. He exclaimed, “Today is my day. I’m going to be the king.”

   After a few minutes, he headed into the woods at the end of a dead-end road with a school bus turnaround at it. The locals had put posted signs along the parking area, but we knew the land was open to the public. 

  Doug threw his stand on his back and began making his way through a maze of rose briars along an old logging road. After breaking out of heavy brush and thick pines, he found himself on a hardwood ridge with oaks that were raining acorns. He quickly picked a tree and climbed it. He would be able to see a runway that ran along the side of the hill and another one that came down a finger and crossed the gut in front of him.     

   A few hours into his sit, he sent an arrow through a beautiful 8-pointer. The king had spoken. He was the ruler of the kingdom… and the tradition came to life: wear the crown and become the king for a day.

  Unable to fill my tag that week, I decided to return to Ohio for the first two days of gun season in early December. While rushing around in the motel room and packing the truck, I noticed the crown in the backseat. 

  I grabbed it and placed it on my head. I smiled at Dad and said, “Today is my day. I’m going to be the king.” 

  We laughed and Dad said, “C’mon, do you really think that thing has another day of magic in it?”

  “I most certainly do think that. Do you want to wear it? We can double up,” I snickered.

  A few hours later, gunfire starting echoing off the southern Ohio hills, and I was wishing I had brought an armored suit for protection. Then, a stick snapped and three does appeared on the hill in front of me and began trotting down the hill. Watching them, I heard a buck grunt. Within seconds, he was hot on their trail with two things on his mind: escaping hunters and finding a lady to breed.

  I shouldered the gun, found his front shoulder in the scope and fired. Stumbling, he continued following the does, and I quickly sent two more slugs in his direction. Seconds later, I was standing above the giant 10-pointer that many locals had named Bullwinkle… the crown had produced a new king, and I got my first taste of what it felt like to be the king for a day. 

                                                                    Twenty Years Later

 The tradition has become a staple of our hunting excursions since that day in the early 2000s, and occasionally, a new cat comes into the fold to try its luck at jumping from peasantry to royalty. Well, that happened this year. 

  Shortly after returning from the Midwest this year, I headed to camp. Sitting at the kitchen table, I glanced at the crown hanging above the sink. A few minutes later, I took it off the nail from which it was hanging and placed it gently on my head.

  I looked at Brian and Dad and said, “Today’s the day.”

  They both rolled their eyes and laughed… but I believed. I believed in the power of the crown, and I believed I was going to kill a buck later that day. 

  As I trudged through the darkness to get into an area where I thought deer would be moving at daylight, I thought of all the great times I’ve experienced after wearing the crown for a couple of minutes. I killed a high-tined 10-pointer one year after we almost killed ourselves on icy roads one morning. I killed a thick beamed 10 that had bladed tines another year. Then, another year, I put an arrow through a giant buck after passing him up for having a couple of broken tines before changing my mind and making good on the shot. The crown had brought me luck on more than one occasion. Would this morning me another one of those mornings? I made sure I didn’t wear it too long the night before. I just had it on long enough to let the aura of the crown soak into my body.

  When the woods began getting gray, I slowed down and poked my way through the thick beech-whips. I could smell a buck’s hocks, so I knew he was nearby – or had he already passed through and made his way to the next mountain or swamp?

  While tiptoeing through the thick cover, my gut told me to stay focused. Scanning to the left, then to the right, I tried making a deer appear. After a few minutes, the woods lightened up, and I became more relaxed and settled into my surroundings, blending in with the trees around me. Continuing my journey through the area, I took three steps and stopped, five steps and stopped. I knew I would walk up on something if I remained in the moment and paid attention. 

 Forty-five minutes later, I got a look at something moving. What first looked like a branch moving on one of the small beech trees suddenly became an antler on a big buck. With his head down and nose on the ground, the gladiator had no clue I was in his arena.

  Seconds later, the gunshot echoed off the surrounding mountains, and the buck fell in his tracks. He never knew what hit him. Although kings feel superior when they grasp victory, sadness quickly found its way into my core. 

  I reached down and ran my hand along his wet hide as the beautiful white snow quickly became stained in red. He had been the king of his kingdom a few minutes earlier, but I had quietly gotten past all his guards and crossed the moat. I killed him in his palace. Now, I could be the king again, if only for a day. 

                                                                         The New King

  Unlike many years, my kingship only lasted a few days, but I was a hero throughout the countryside. My fellow peasants shared meals and told stories. I thoroughly enjoyed the festivities. Then, Caleb Gates, the new prince of bucks, showed up at camp. He escaped his own kingdom, where he and his children had been battling sickness on and off for the last month. Finally, he felt well enough to try his hand in the big woods. Even if he didn’t get anything, he would be able to get some fresh air and escape into another kingdom that so few others ever get to experience. 

  The night before the hunt, my father took the crown down and put it on his head. He left it on while he cooked and ate dinner, finally taking it off before sitting in front of the wood stove. He was ready to become the king. 

  The next morning, everyone scurried around while getting ready. The joking revolved around the crown and people started making a mockery out of it, including my cousin Kyle. However, Caleb stayed in the back and didn’t say a word. 

  When he was ready to leave for the day, he turned around and said, “Let me put that thing on.”

The crown was on and off his head in less than a minute. Watching the events unfold, I knew the luck of the crown would be on his side. After all, he didn’t make a big deal of it, and he put it on and took it off to enter a buck’s kingdom… or invite one into his own. He knew the power of the crown and didn’t neglect what it had to offer.

  Shortly after daylight, a deer began sneaking down the hill behind Caleb. Handcuffed, Caleb couldn’t turn around to shoulder the gun and prepare himself for a shot. Straining his eyes to look behind the tree at the oncoming deer, he could see that it had a rack. Then, the deer stopped.

  As the wind hit him in the face, Caleb knew the buck was going to bolt, but he didn’t know things would develop so quickly. After the deer’s first few bounds, Caleb jumped up and spun around. In the chaos, the deer stopped in some thick cover. Wasting no time, Caleb centered his aim. A thunderous roar echoed through the forest, and the creatures inhabiting it knew a new king had been crowned. 

  Standing above the fallen deer, Caleb smiled. In the short time he had known about the crown, he never imagined he would become the king so quickly after wearing it for the first time. Unlike Wags, the pauper who disrespected the crown, Caleb relished in the opportunity to wear it. 

  The rest of the season passed quickly, and Caleb remained the ruler of the kingdom. His kingship will last at least until next hunting season. Long live the king and the power of the crown. 

   

   Thinking back to that hot spring day six or seven years earlier, I could remember Mrs. Ahrens’ concern for me as I laid in the dirt next to home plate after being beaned in the middle of the back by her son Michael’s fastball. I had turned my back because there was no escaping the ball’s path, and I took it in the center of my spine before crumpling to the ground. It stung like hell, but after getting my breath, I wiped my uniform clean and trotted down to first base while hearing my dad tell everyone I would be OK. Seemingly satisfied by my father’s remarks, Mrs. Ahrens sat back down and enjoyed the rest of the day, but I nursed the swollen welt that left the seam marks of the baseball imprinted on my skin. 

  As I turned off from the main corridor and headed down A-wing for my first day of my Public Speaking class, I felt a bit of nausea begin to slowly crawl out of my navel and make its way toward my mouth. My heart raced, my mouth became dry, and my palms began to sweat. In a few more steps, I would be making the turn into Mrs. Ahrens’ class. After experiencing many Little League games against her sons and playing with her youngest son, Roger, in high school, I knew she was a kind, gentle, caring woman, but I was still nervous. After all, is there any 10^th grade student who looks forward to public speaking? I sure didn’t think so. 

  Turning the corner and walking through the door, I saw many familiar faces in the classroom. Looking around, I knew we would have a good class, as most people in the class were relatively close to each other. I took a seat halfway back in the room and on the far right. She welcomed me as I set my other books on the desk and took a deep breath. And there I was… once again ready to learn about something I would never need in the future. I wasn’t going to be a politician. I wasn’t going to be newscaster. I wasn’t going to be a lecturer. Heck, I didn’t know what the heck I was going to be, but I knew I would never be speaking in front of people.

  As the weeks wore on, we learned a lot about how different people approach public speaking. We studied the intricacies of keeping the audience’s attention, and we learned how to divert our nervousness if we felt it beginning to take over. She told us to watch great speakers and follow their lead. We learned to pick a spot or a face in the crowd and to stare at the place or person while speaking but to make sure whatever we picked to look at was in the middle of the room, which would allow us to move our head back and forth but always return to the center. She taught us to pretend we were speaking to one person in the crowd so it would make all the other nameless faces disappear. 

  Then, the big assignment finally made its way into our laps. We had to pick something of our own choice to speak about and give a presentation on that topic to help people learn more about it. Panic-stricken, I didn’t know what to do. I left class and begged for something to pop into my mind to talk about. How would I ever find something that would allow me to hold the interest of all my classmates and entertain them for the better part of 30 minutes?

  Finally, I gave in and sheepishly wandered back to A-wing at the end of the next school day. I told her I didn’t have any idea how to approach the assignment. Her genuine smile and cheerful voice instantly hit home with me as I listened to her words.

  After building my confidence for a solid five minutes, she hit me with the news that she couldn’t help me pick a topic, but she did tell me that I needed to pick something that I knew a lot about. She explained to me that speaking about things that interest us usually makes it easier to give a presentation that will interest others. She left me with one bit of final advice after I slung my bag of books over my shoulder.

  She said, “Whatever you’re going to do, just make sure you are more prepared than anyone else and be passionate about the subject when you speak.” 

  When I made the left turn out of the classroom and headed down the hall, I could see my bus pulling up. I jumped on, looked out the window, and decided I was going to give my speech about archery. I knew that not many of my fellow classmates knew much, if anything, about archery, so I would give it my best shot at filling their heads full of unfamiliar information. However, I was unsure how I would set the tone and snag their interest, so the next day, I asked her if I could bring my bow to class for my presentation. She told me it wouldn’t be a problem, so my preparations began. 

  While listening to my classmates go before me, I enjoyed many of their speeches. I learned things that I had never known, and a few speeches perked my interest about topics I had never considered. Then, it was my turn. I would be speaking the next day. 

  Before leaving school, I popped my head into Mrs. Ahrens’ classroom and reminded her that I was bringing my bow and arrows to class the next day. She smiled that big smile of hers and replied, “Are you prepared?” 

  I nodded with approval and said, “Absolutely. I think I’m all set.”

  She giggled and chirped, “I’ll see you tomorrow.”

  There were two speeches given each day, and my speech would be the second one, which would give my anxiety time to do jumping jacks in my belly and trampoline off from the roof of my mouth. I never heard the first person speak. My mind was focused on all the particulars I would have to cover, and I could hear Mrs. Ahrens, voice saying that the best speakers are always prepared, no matter the subject.

  My classmates became quiet when I laid my bow and arrows on the desk in front of me. Standing at the podium, I decided I didn’t want to stand to give my speech, so I sat down. Mrs. Ahrens looked at me awkwardly and asked what I was doing. I explained to her that it would be more convenient for me to take a seat for my speech so I could more easily handle the equipment and allow me to make my audience feel like they were also archers. 

  She interrupted me at that point and told the class that it was important to take chances and be different. She told them that my approach, although different, would work well in that situation. 

  The minutes passed quickly, and I almost forgot I was babbling about archery because I got lost in what I was talking about. Within seconds, I felt like I was sitting in the archery club talking to other archers. I answered the questions and opened people’s eyes to a sport that many had never known about. 

  Mrs. Ahrens passed away last week, but the lessons she taught me that year have remained. I’ve been lucky enough to speak at many public functions over the years. I’ve spoken at church functions, in schools, at sportsman shows, and in fish and game clubs among other places. The lesson I learned about preparation has stuck with me in everything I’ve done. I will not do anything unless I’m prepared. It simply makes it better for me and for anyone involved. 

  Although we have many teachers throughout our school years, there are a few that stand out. These teachers aren’t the same for everyone. However, every student has a teacher or two who understand them and how to help them grow. Mrs. Ahrens was one of those teachers to me. She is one of the ones I’m thankful for. The lessons she taught to me were full of knowledge I would need for her Public Speaking class, but more than that, they were full of life lessons. We never know what the impact of a person will be when we meet him or her, but when we glance back in time, we can see people who made significant contributions to our lives. 

  The years have passed quickly… and I have aged… and so have my teachers – my heroes. I took the lessons given to me from many of them and tried constructing the best life possible out of those lessons. In doing so, I was fortunate enough to be inducted into the Hudson Falls High School Wall of Distinction, at which time I chose to invite the teachers who I felt made the greatest contributions to my success and allowed me to do things that led to my nomination. 

  I invited a handful of teachers to attend the ceremony and hoped that some would be able to make it, as most of them were getting up there in age. Right before the ceremony started, my uncle came down to me in the front row and said that there was someone who wanted to see me at the back of the auditorium. Walking up the aisle, I saw Mrs. Ahrens waiting for me… she had made the trip to the induction, and I was thankful. We exchanged pleasantries, and she told me she would have to leave before the social hour afterward. I was highly disappointed I wouldn’t be able to talk with her again, but I was delighted that she found the time in her busy schedule to make it there that day. As I enjoyed going to her class almost 40 years ago, I can only hope she enjoyed hearing about how my life has played out so far.

  During my speech, I told people how she had helped me to prepare for the moment I was sharing with them. As I was speaking about her, I hoped in some small way that she was proud of me. I knew my parents and family were proud of me, but I hoped that the teachers who helped me along the way felt the same. That’s why I made sure to give them the credit they deserved, for without them, many things in my life never would have happened. 

  When I looked toward the back of the auditorium near the end of the ceremony, I saw an empty place where she had been sitting when I was speaking. She was gone, but I had let her know in my speech that a part of her will always be alive within me. Thank you, Mrs. Ahrens, for being a teacher who taught me what I was meant to learn.

  My lungs burned as I headed out of the dark canyon I had ventured into earlier that day. One foot clipped the top of a log as the other one landed squarely in the middle of the hard-packed horse trail on the other side of it. 

  Looking at my watch, I knew the darkness would engulf the light within the next half hour. Could I make it to the top of the hill without having to break out my headlamp? I wasn’t sure, but I continued up the trail while feeling the burn in my calves and quads. Gritting my teeth and looking at a few trees about 50 yards ahead, I made small goals to help me keep moving. It had been a long day without any encounters, well unless you count the cow elk and her two calves that I spotted on the edge of the quakies at first light.

  Finally, I crested the hill and saw a forest road on the other side of the meadow. The light had been overtaken by a starlit sky. Looking up, my mind wandered to the first time my father had brought me to the woods and let me hunt by myself. 

  He dropped me off at my stand and returned in the darkness to pick me up. We walked quietly to the truck that night. I could hear the geese in the sky above me. Without breaking stride, Dad told me winter would be here before we knew it, and we should make a point of enjoying every day that we could take a trip to the forest. At the time, I had no idea how true those words would ring as I aged. 

  When a coyote shrieked on the ridge paralleling the road, the noise brought me back to the present. Looking up, the stars sparkled in every direction, but an eerie, quiet sky accompanied the tiny glistening objects. There were no blinking lights from planes crossing through the airway that linked the East Coast to the West Coast. Almost every night, more than 50 planes could be seen, and I always wondered if pilots noticed areas in flight as we notice turns in roads that we regularly travel.  However, the sky was void of red, green and white lights… nothing to be seen. 

  Although, I noticed the emptiness above me, I didn’t give it much thought. When I got back to the tent, my father had dinner ready to serve. I gobbled down my pieces of chicken after dipping them in my instant stuffing and called it a night.  My mind and body were exhausted. 

  As I drifted into sleep, the mountains along the Continental Divide welcomed my soul and allowed me to quickly fade into a land of unicorns dashing between bugling bulls. I saw them charging in after hearing my calls. Snot flew across the air in the high-country meadow, and two bulls screamed back and forth, but neither of them were willing to commit to the battle. Then, the lights went out, and I was gone. 

  Upon waking two hours before sunrise, the sky was still quiet. There were no blinking lights… still no planes. Although I had noticed it the night before, it was becoming more apparent. Dad commented about it being concerning that no planes were in the air. However, being 15 miles from the nearest marked road, we didn’t have a care in the world. 

  After gathering our gear and heading out for the morning hunt, we approached it with cautious optimism. The worst hunts can become the best ones in a matter of seconds. As one hour led into the next, we found ourselves getting warmer and warmer as the sun climbed to its peak for the day. Realizing the animals were inactive, we headed back to camp, where my buddies Gene and Mike decided to go into town to call Mike’s parents and get some supplies. Dad and I decided to stay at camp with Brian, a guy whom we picked up in Ohio to join us on the hunt. He had relatives in the area, and he had some familiarity with the surrounding mountains. 

  As the afternoon wore on, Dad and I decided to head out behind camp to hunt for a few hours. While still-hunting through meadows along the edge of an aspen grove, we spotted a bull on the shelf below us. I quickly got in position for a shot and drew my bow. When the string snapped forward, the arrow was on its way. Watching it sail through the air, I knew it had a chance. Suddenly it lost its energy and arc and whistled under the elk’s belly behind its front shoulders. I had missed. 

  We went down the hill, gathered my arrow and headed back to camp. As we walked down the forest road, we saw Mike and Gene pulling into camp. They quickly jumped out of Dad’s truck and told us that two big buildings in New York City had been hit by planes.  Although it was hard to make sense of what they were saying, Mike was able to relay to us that the officials believed a man named Osama bin Laden was responsible for the planes. They went on to tell us the buildings had collapsed and many people were dead. 

  Being from upstate New York and having been to the city a number of times, it was hard to fathom what he was saying. How in the world could those two buildings have collapsed? I began thinking he may have misinterpreted the news reports. 

  After getting the news out, they also told us that someone kept calling Dad’s cell phone, so they picked it up, and it was my mother. She was confused when neither Dad nor I answered the phone and she was told that neither one of us were available to talk because we were still in the mountains at camp. Mom became concerned because she had never met Gene or Mike, and she couldn’t gather why we weren’t in Dad’s truck. 

  After sorting all of that out, we made dinner and quickly drifted off to sleep. It’s impossible to understand the weight of something if you don’t see it firsthand, so we went about our business as usual. 

  The next morning, Dad and Mike headed onto Haystack Mountain in search of elk, while Gene, Brian and I all went to different areas. Once again, it didn’t take long for the temperature to climb into the upper 70s. I’m still not sure why or how it happened, but we all ended up back at camp around noon. 

  After a brief discussion, Dad and I decided we needed to head home. Although we still hadn’t seen a lick of coverage on the events of Sept. 11, we knew it couldn’t be good if the Twin Towers were no longer standing. Living north of New York City, we knew we had to get home to be with our family members, so we packed up and headed east. It would take us a few days to get home, but it was where we needed to be. 

  The ride home still stands with me as one of the greatest things I’ve ever witnessed in my travels, and I have traveled to many places. The tires hummed over the pavement, and flags greeted us everywhere we went. People stood on bridges and waved flags. Small towns had flags from one street end to the next. Big cities had flags on billboards, and flags draped off road signs. Men had flags painted on their bare chests, and a few women donned American flag bikinis. Trucks had flags sticking out of both ends of their beds. People were united. Everybody joined one team, and Americans stood tall. 

  We dropped Brian off in Ohio around 5:00 p.m. and continued toward home. We would drive all night to be home the next morning. After we rolled into the driveway, Mom welcomed us with a hot breakfast. As we began eating, she filled us in on the events that had transpired and told us that my nephew, Anthony, was worried that the bad guys were going to come up I-87 out of the city to get him. Listening to the background noise on the TV, I knew that life as we knew it would never be the same.  The devastation was beyond my wildest imagination, and I had been at 11,000 feet a few days earlier without a care in the world. 

  Now, 20 years have passed and the world is a different place. I have lost a few friends, but I have gained a few others. Brian would go on to join the military a few years later and lose his life in Afghanistan, and Mike’s parents would pass away.

However, my desire to live a good life still remains.  I’ve seen a lot of changes in 20 years and watching coverage of the events last weekend reminded me that life does not slow down for anyone. Life also has no favorites. You may know people who have gotten to places without deserving it, and you may know others who have struggled through life and deserve more, but you also must realize that all of that is really insignificant. That is why I’ve tried to live a good life and do as many things as possible. I’ve made it a habit to dive into the things that bring me happiness, and I pursue them with unbridled passion. I live to enjoy life… and the world that is in front of me, for life can change in a matter of seconds.

  I once walked into a hiring manager’s office after two interviews and readied myself for the news I knew was coming. After all, I had heard the whispers from many of the grapes that were hanging from the vine. One of the tiniest and most immature grapes of the season had opened its mouth, spewing juice down the fencepost as he told the others on the vine that he had been promised the job, so nobody else had a chance.

   As I closed the door behind me, the manager began to shed tears. They slowly ran down her face as she told me there was nothing she could do because she had been forced by one of her leaders to select another person for the job. Smiling, I told her I didn’t expect anything more than that, especially from the captain running the ship. Although my skills and experience were far superior to any other candidate, I was passed over yet again. I just didn’t fit into the clique. Nothing was based on actual skills or experience, and I had grown accustomed to lame, unthoughtful reasons for rejection. Some of them made me laugh. I heard them all, including my favorite: “I’m sorry. We chose a person who is more qualified for the job.” Although I had every qualification on the job posting, the person who was hired didn’t have any of them. As the rejections increased in number, I became numb to the process. It became fun to watch the reactions of the deliverers of the news. Everyone had a different style.

  Eventually, I learned to go along with it and laugh things off. I can’t say it didn’t get under my skin, especially when I watched people gain titles that would be beneficial for their future job searches. The only thing I knew I had on my side was that I was watching the Peter Principle take effect on a daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly basis. I was a witness to a slew of people being promoted to their level of incompetence, and I could do nothing but watch it. 

  That’s when I decided to do something about it and help myself grow in areas where I could gain more experience in the communications/journalism field and use it for my own personal endeavors. Since my skills would never be recognized and my value would never be utilized in corporate America, I made a choice to pursue success on other avenues that would take me to the arenas where the gladiators who shared my passions resided. In quick fashion, I found my way onto a bestsellers list and won a few awards along the way. Gaining traction with that, my presence was requested in schools to speak to children about a variety of things, including their career choices. Heck, I even had the opportunity to speak to younger children, and I listened to their dreams as they expressed their curiosity about Todd Mead and what it meant to be an author, lecturer and world champion. From there, the journey brought me into lecture halls at outdoorsman shows and into churches to speak to fellow outdoorsmen. The journey has been incredibly rewarding, yet I still sit behind a computer within corporate America, where I am “unqualified” to do any “meaningful” job. Many people ask why, and I even ask myself that question from time to time because I’ve never really been able to figure it out. I’ve applied a number of places and have only been called for one interview. I still go through the daily grind, but I find incredible peace and fulfillment from my hobbies. I’ve often considered doing something different and turning the hobbies into a job, but I’ve always wondered if the love of the game would disappear at that point. 

So why do I share all of this with you? Recently, I’ve witnessed an incredibly sad chain of events, and as I sit back and observe, I know there’s not much I can do other than offer advice. Sometimes I feel the advice is hollow due to what I’ve experienced throughout my working life. Ive seen how the job search goes. However, I try to give hope to people and help them remain optimistic.

                                                  January 2019

    A few winters ago, I was feeling the effects of an injury to my surgically repaired shoulder. In the late summer, I had reinjured it while playing softball. I had gone to an orthopedic surgeon for an initial consultation but was waiting to get a second opinion from a doctor in Albany, N.Y. Meanwhile, I couldn’t shoot my bow. The pain was excruciating.

  Loving archery as much as I do, I’m a certified range rat. I will hang out at the range and talk if I can’t shoot my bow. I love archery, and I love being around archers, especially when they are friends. During my first couple of visits to the range in early January, a few of the regulars told me that a young guy in a wheelchair had joined the league, and they were trying to help him. After hearing the news, I made it a point to meet this young lad, who I would later learn was a 6 ‘8’ giant of a man.

  As I tried to catch up to him, I had a hard time doing so. Eventually, I learned that he had signed up for the leagues, so I made it a point to show up on league night and observe him. It didn’t take long to see him when I walked in. His wheelchair was backed up against the wall on lane 14, and his mom sat behind him in a chair, although I didn’t know it was his mom at the time.

  Watching from a distance, I saw a handful of experts telling him how he should be shooting. I could see some frustration building inside the melon on top of his shoulders. He was slamming the trigger like a jackhammer pounding the concrete off a sidewalk that was going to be rebuilt. I knew we would have to put his jackhammer aside so he could learn more about archery, patience, and discipline. I quietly walked out the door and let my observations lap around the inside of my head for countless hours the next few days….. Why was he in a wheelchair? It looked like he could use his legs, so did he really need that chair or was he recovering from an injury? How old was he? Did he go to the range with his mother – or was that his girlfriend? Would he be insulted if I offered to help him?

  The following week, I went to watch him again. Getting closer this time, I watched closely. A slew of clowns began jumping out of the clown car to offer him help, but I stayed in the background and listened. Finally, I walked over and asked if he would like some instruction to make a good shot, hopefully to increase his enjoyment of archery. He quickly said he would like some help, and I told him that he was not to listen to anyone else for the time being because we had to straighten out a few things that had gone awry. He graciously made it clear that he could do that.

                                                   The Discovery

  In a matter of days, I learned that the lad’s name was Chris Hall. He had been able to walk until he reached the middle of his teen years, at which time a wheelchair became his best option. He and his family had traveled to many hospitals across the country to get help, but nobody could provide any answers. Eventually, Chris lost the ability to walk. Although he can feel his legs and move them around, his legs don’t work like mine. It’s almost as if the nerves don’t fire to get his legs moving in the right direction as the right time. While learning these things, I also found out he had dexterity issues in his hands and fingers. This would play a part when I decided to teach him how to shoot a caliper release the correct way. I didn’t feel confident that he could succeed with a hinge at that point in time. 

  We began working tirelessly at the range to get him headed in the right direction. It didn’t take long to see that Chris was a quick learner. Within no time, he had the general concept down. I felt confident knowing I got him to a place where he could shoot accurately. He also hadn’t had time to pick up any of the bad habits that the clowns jumping out of the clown car were trying to sell to him.

 In late March, we “rolled” into Turning Stone Casino in Verona, N.Y., for the Beast of the East Vegas Tournament. Chris was nervous but confident. Honestly, I didn’t know what to expect. After the round was over and he had finished his first tournament, we found out he had shot his highest score of the year. His work had paid off. 

                                                   Flash Forward

  When COVID-19 put a crimp on everyone’s lifestyle last year, Chris’ life changed too. Since his immune system is already compromised, or we are led to believe it is, he decided to stay on unemployment to avoid any potential risks associated with going back to work. He worked at the service counter for a local Harley Davidson dealer and loved his job. He was good at it and enjoyed trying his hardest to keep the customers informed, satisfied and happy. He knew the ins and outs of service and made it a point to exhaust all efforts to extend great customer service to anyone who walked in the door. 

  He has made every effort to enjoy the things he loves, which allowed him to go to Colorado to pursue antelope in mid-August. After seeing a different world and experiencing a successful hunt, his eyes were opened to many possibilities that might not have otherwise existed. 

  Upon his return, he made a concentrated effort to better his life and took courses for web development and began pursuing employment in the field. With the unemployment number creeping higher and higher, this task became far more difficult than expected. Instead of giving in, he decided to apply for any of the jobs he found that he could do without having the use of his legs. That’s when the phone began ringing and interviews were scheduled.

  After going to a handful of interviews and experiencing things that no normal human being should ever hear or see, he began becoming depressed. He was asked how he could be a service manager if he couldn’t drive any of the cars on the lot. Well, how about that … Chris can drive a car and does it well. I’ve ridden with him many times and feel as safe as if anyone else is driving, although I got him in trouble with his mom when I told her I was behind him when he was going 75 mph on a country road one night. Maybe the guy should have been more welcoming. Maybe he should have tried learning about how Chris’ previous jobs could have helped this company. Maybe if he hadn’t looked at Chris sitting in a  wheelchair and instantly formed an opinion of the so-called “handicapped” man, he would have learned that Chris’ customer service skills far outweigh most people’s.  Maybe he would have learned that Chris just wants a fair opportunity, in which his worth isn’t based on his disability. Maybe Chris wants to be treated like every other person who applied for the job. Let the “handicapped” man work for a week without pay to show his worth. Maybe that would have been a better idea than shooting him a look and making a sarcastic comment. 

  Why do these things happen every time Chris applies for a job? Why do people stare when they see something that doesn’t live up to their expectations of how or what things should be? I guess I’m lucky in that aspect. When I met Chris, I saw a guy in a wheelchair. When I offered to teach him how to shoot a bow, I looked at him as Chris the archer. Instantly, he was one of the guys. 

  As Chris began going to a few tournaments, everyone on the shooting line treated him no differently than anyone else. In all reality, he is no different than me. He loves archery, and he loves the outdoors. We both find our peace while doing the things we enjoy. It’s definitely easier on me, but the man doesn’t let anything hold him back. If he must crawl 400 yards across a field to hunt, he never says a word … he just does it. I never tell him there’s anything he can’t do, because I have witnessed firsthand that any man can do anything he wants if he puts his mind to it. Although we make our own luck, sometimes we can’t avoid the shitty hand of cards that the dealer lays down in front of us. That’s when we must find a way to survive, for we can only bluff for so long. 

                                                     Final Thoughts

  I’m not sure what made me write this, but I believe it’s because I’ve been spending a lot of time at the range with Chris and I can see the frustrations he has encountered over the last few months. Nobody is willing to give him a chance to prove himself, simply because he is in a wheelchair. When corporate America stomped on my dreams in the early days, I felt the same way: I knew there was absolutely nothing I could do. The people staring back at me didn’t care and didn’t want to put me in a place to succeed. It felt better to look at an ice sculpture on a warm winter’s day and watch the fingertips drip off from it and fall to the ground, eventually leaving nothing more than a puddle of dirty ice and snow that people walked over and commented on without knowing the story that was waiting to be told. Instead, they were all about themselves and the people within their tiny circle. It’s unfortunate that people can’t be fair to everyone. Instead, they take sides and become overly biased, showing favoritism at every turn.

  I’ve learned that the world is an incredibly big, small place. I’ve learned that people will crush your heart, shoot down your desires, and try to destroy your confidence. I’ve seen people who can’t look into your eyes after they’ve screwed you over, or if they do look, they smile because they know they’ve purposely handed you a voided check to prevent you from cashing in. Many people hire others who are inferior because they’re afraid of your experience and intelligent. They never want to be challenged, so it goes back to the Peter Principle and they hire people to the level of their incompetence. If you stand tall and walk the line, you can find a calmness beneath all the pettiness that surrounds you. When you are turned down, you can thank the person because you don’t have to become a part of his thought process. He has allowed you to do your own thing and chase your own dreams. If you must work to get a paycheck, that’s OK too. You can still give everything you have to your employer and leave the job at the office when you walk out the door every day. There’s nothing wrong with that approach. The greatest gift these people have given to you is the ability to do what you want to do on your own time. You will have more free time by not being involved in all of the petty tasks that supposedly make people more important, even though we all know most jobs – no matter the title – are the same. There aren’t many jobs in corporate America that any individual can’t learn to do with a little training, but so many people are supposedly unqualified to do them.

  Chris has taught me to accept things as they are at that moment in time. He was able to walk, run, skate, and jump when he was growing up. He did everything other kids did. Then, as time moved along he had to adapt to the changes he encountered. These didn’t make him any less of a man. He’s still smart, caring, outgoing, and funny. He can still do things that others wish they could do. Every person has skills that others do not have. Finding your skill and recognizing and rewarding the skills of others is a trait that very few people share. Instead, it has become a society full of “All About Me” people. They don’t fight for others, and they don’t have anyone’s back when it’s necessary to stand up and be heard.   Instead, we have piles of “Yes Ma’am” and “Yes Sir” people as leaders. If I could give any advice to anyone, it would be to stand up for the people who work for you. You can never achieve respect without earning it, although it comes freely from many in this participation-award society that we have become. I want to be respected by respected people. Any other respect is truly hollow.

  If you ever find yourself interviewing a guy in a wheelchair, think about the questions you should ask him. Getting to know him might allow you to hire the best employee the company has ever had. If you find yourself looking below his chest, reevaluate what you are doing. It’s time to listen to what he can do for your business. If you’re in corporate America, have the courage to do the right thing instead of doing what you’re told. Stand up for yourself and the people you believe in. Don’t hide behind the masquerade that encompasses you.

  When I met Chris, I knew I wanted to help him become the best archer he could be. Within a few weeks, I forgot about the wheelchair. I don’t treat him any differently than anyone else. I tell him to go get my stuff when I don’t feel like retrieving my arrows from the target. I tell him to carry my bow from the truck to the range, and he does it. It doesn’t take long to realize that we are two people playing the same game: life.